I got in the car this morning to drive to see my husband. I turned on the radio to listen to Joel Osteen on Sirius XM, like I usually do, to get my daily infusion of inspiration and encouragement. For some reason my bluetooth connected itself and started playing songs from the playlist on my phone instead. When I saw Glen’s name come up on the screen, I reached to switch back to Joel (because sometimes hearing Glen sing makes me sad) but suddenly the lyrics of this particular song captured my attention. Although the song was not written by Glen, the words spoke to me as If they came directly from his heart.
I’m just a poet in a world of singers
How I’d love to help you sing your song
But your whole world is filled up with your remembrance
Don’t live in the past, girl – it’s all gone
Now that Glen is in the late stages of Alzheimer’s, hearing him say the past is gone seems very profound. The past is certainly gone for Glen. It’s sad that we can no longer share our memories and that I must do the remembering alone. The words ring true, though. Living in the past has no future for me. How then should I live?
I know you’ve been lookin’ for some answers
And it’s kinda hard to find them all alone
But I’ll take time to teach you if you let me
I just want to help you sing along
Glen is teaching me to live each moment as it comes. His courage helps me find my own voice and my own song to sing.
‘Cause I got some words if you’ve got a melody
We could sing a happy song
And I got the love If you’ve got the faith in me
Girl we can get along
Give me some time and I’ll write you a beautiful love song
Glen and I were very happily married before he was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, and I know that he would want me to continue being happy no matter what. My faith in his love for me and my faith in God will get me through and I will happily finish his beautiful love song for both of us.
That’s our job as caregivers – to help our loved ones finish their song.
As co-writers we’re sure to receive the emotional royalties for eternity.